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essential details — °‧★
looking for writers aged 24+
about_me {
genres: [sci fi, retro futuristic, historical, historical fantasy, horror],
pairings: any (trans inclusive) // queer preferred,
genders I play: any // but I lean more towards male and enbies,
writing style: 3rd person past or present,
post frequency: at least once weekly,
post length: flexible multi-para // 300 words minimum to 2800+,
face claims: realistic pictures and/or descriptions,
eroticism: can fade to black or write moderate smut as preferred,
dislikes: [slice of life, high fantasy, dnd based, present day modern, smut without story, fandom]
};
word bank: [rivalries, slow burn, forced proximity, enemies to lovers, dysfunctional relationships, psychological games, sarcastic / witty banter, power struggles and imbalances, political intrigue, war (especially historical settings), capitalist dystopias, heavy classism, societal discrimination, revolutionary movements, cybernetics, androids, multi-planetary settings, fighting pits, gladiator arenas, captives and prisoners, criminal undergrounds, black market dealers, trauma, existential crises, PTSD, coping with disability, religious trauma, psychological horror, abandonment, angst, gore and violence, gothic themes, dark religious themes, dark academia, morally grey vibes, obsession, flawed characters, possessiveness, unreliable narrators / different perspectives, gods, djinn, angels / demons, creatures of folklore];
I highly value diversity so my OCs tend to be some combination of queer, gender nonconforming, BIPOC, neurodivergent, or disabled, and they come from a variety of cultural, religious, and socioeconomic backgrounds.
I'm a very detailed character driven writer, preferring to let interpersonal dynamics drive the story over doing anything heavily plot focused. I'm motivated to write by my excitement over the interpersonal dynamics between our characters so I do best with other writers who like to deep dive into the nitty-gritty of characterization! I'll happily write a whole thesis detailing my OCs deepest fears and the many ways you might push their buttons… so be prepared to receive that energy, and maybe even reciprocate if you'd like me to adore you as a writer!
I adore plotting and chatting about our characters OOC. I like to spend up to a few weeks (if needed) planning things before starting IC posts because I like to get to know your OC and how they mesh with mine beforehand. We don't need to plan every detail in advance by any means but I value partners who share my love of plotting! I don't like only learning about OCs through IC posts or winging the whole story as we go. The benefit of planning a foundation beforehand is I tend to maintain partners / long term RPs lasting years if we click! I like OOC chat in general too, making friends and getting comfortable with each other tends to make the story better in my opinion.
I'm relaxed, communicative, and adaptable. It's my goal to create something we both love and only write things we're excited about. I'm down to accommodate in a myriad of ways including skipping slow scenes, retconning / adjusting things partway through a story as needed, and switching to different pairings or even starting a new story if a change of pace is needed. Don't be afraid to tell me about anything that's not working for you, I know communication can be hard sometimes but I really don't mind as long as you approach me in a kind and respectful way!
I'm generally responsive and will let you know if I can't reply for a length of time or wish to drop the rp for whatever reason. I greatly appreciate when others do the same. I'm typically happy to reconnect after a hiatus, especially if you gave me a heads up. I'll happily wait long periods for IC replies so long as there's communication OOC.
I'm an advanced novella writer at heart but tend to adjust my length to suit what's happening… i.e. heavy dialogue or interaction will see shorter posts in general, though I'll never give less than a few paragraphs. I'm not too fussy over length matching or rigid expectations as long as it doesn't feel like a chronic mismatch of enthusiasm.
I love building large casts with several main pairings and switching our focus whenever we like to keep things fresh / interesting. I take a "everyone's the protagonist of their own story" approach to side characters so they tend to be just as developed as my mains. It doesn't bother me if partners prefer to keep things constrained to a single main pairing however. Just let me know your preference!
erp kinks and limits — °‧★
smut is optional. I love a good story-focused ERP but also have no issues fading-to-black, so let me know your preference! Catch me writing somewhere between a 90/10 and 60/40 story-to-smut ratio if we're doing spice. It really depends on the characters, plot, and my partner's preferences.
I'm extremely communicative and will not write any NSFW content without explicitly discussing it first, there will be no unexpected surprises within IC posts when it comes to anything of this nature. This includes non-sexual dark themes as well, such as violence, gore, or traumatic events. Nothing should happen to either of our characters that we haven't approved beforehand. It's basic consent and respect. If you don't like the idea of outlining a scene beforehand and sticking to the boundaries discussed then I'm most definitely not the writing partner for you.
I favor slow burns as I'm mostly interested in exploring the emotional / psychological components and impacts of a scene rather than focusing on smut for the sake of it. Give me power dynamics, mental hangups, impacts of trauma, feelings of regret, one sided affection, complex histories, homoerotic tension, religious trauma, all the juicy mental turmoil stuff that makes sex more than just sex.
please don't conflate me with my characters. You wouldn't assume I'm into killing people just because I write a serial killer, so likewise my willingness to write a kink does not equal me personally having that kink. I don't write self-inserts.
below is a master list of the kinks I'm open to writing— my OCs will have their own individual preferences so not everything will fit a given character. A kink being listed here doesn't mean it must be included in our story. We'll discuss comfort levels and what fits the story and OCs. I'm generally open to new things so let me know if you're interested in writing something that isn't listed here.
my OCs tend to be switches and subs but I do have the occasional dom. Let me know if you only write certain roles so I can try to match up an OC who's compatible with that. Though… sometimes I do think it's fun to put two OCs together who aren't naturally compatible and watch them try to navigate that.
kinks I'm open to writing:
praise • bondage • dubcon • manipulation • power play • degradation • biting, marks, bruises, branding • dominant, submissive • sadism, masochism • voyeurism, exhibitionism • public play • impact play • sensation play • wax play • orgasm control, edging, denial • overstimulation • choking • group sex • begging • double/triple penetration • piss play • bathroom control • omorashi • oral • facefucking • hatefucks • knife play • free use • somnophillia
limits:
age play • incest • race play • noncon • scat • vore • vomit • hyper/oversized • urethral sounding • inflation • bimbo • furry • pet play • pony play • cheating
plot pitch boogaloo — °‧★
I have 3 fairly detailed pitches below, that's all I had the energy to write before my impatience of wanting to post this recruitment thread already got the better of me. If you're interested in writing with me but aren't feeling any of these plots, feel free to hit me up with a rundown of your general interests as I have other ideas and pairings I haven't written nice pitches for yet. We might be able to work something out!
currently there's no pitches for FxF pairings but if you're looking for that and like sci-fi, historical settings, or mythology, feel free to hit me up because I have a few ideas I didn't get around to writing out yet.
I'm open to hearing others' pitches too.
#1 | sci-fi, horror | MxM, MxNB, or MxF OPEN
Set in a classist hyper capitalist dystopian hellscape with cyborgs as stigmatized second class citizens and AI powered androids that are slowly gaining widespread sentience but aren't seen as citizens, leading to unrest and violence.
My OC, Vanya, was shunned and abused as a child, but found companionship amongst a group of android farmhands, considering them his found family… only to witness them massacre his actual family after gaining sentience, leaving him the sole survivor. Despite this, he chooses to protect them in the aftermath due to his gentle, pacifist nature… and paralyzing fear of what might happen to him should he go against them. Years later he's caught between insidious plans to bring mankind to ruin and a possibly unethical plan to fully eradicate androids to avoid that, unsure where his actual loyalties lie due to his own conflicting feelings of fondness and terror.
It's meant to be a slow burn psychological horror where either side might bring ruin to the other whilst possibly playing mind games and maintaining a front they won't? In my head Vanya's android family also run a butcher shop that specializes in human meat so there's horror elements there as well.
A few possible themes…
◈ coping with disability.
◈ exploring existential questions of what it means to be sentient, whether AI can achieve that, if a presumably sentient AI should be granted rights or put down for the benefit of humanity.
◈ the concept of an artificial being having enough computational prowess to predict and manipulate human behavior to meet their aims— is humanity powerless against that or do they possess some quality to resist it?
◈ pacifism vs violence for a cause.
◈ the idea of bodies being commodified in a capitalist hellscape— lower classes forced to become cyborgs to perform dangerous work, debtors forced to sell organs on the black market, only high class people given the luxury of remaining whole / entirely organic to the point it spurs an organic human elitism movement.
◈ exploring why someone might remain in unhealthy / toxic / abusive relationships.
A few basic details about my OC…
He's a doctor and cybernetic machinist with parkinson's disease. He's skittish, insecure, and a hopelessly competitive workaholic who'd rather run himself into the ground than have a moment of silence with his own thoughts. He desperately wants to be acknowledged as the best in his field of biotechnology, but struggles due to his health and a stubborn refusal to use anything powered by AI despite it being industry standard. He's considered an eccentric technophobe amongst his colleagues. He's also nearly always an anxious mess inside but has an involuntary, perpetual poker face that makes him seem stone cold even if he's barely holding himself together. Has a sort of morbid, deadpan humor.
He's a slightly feminine gnc male. Bisexual. Short stature. Russian. By his nervous mannerisms you might guess he's a sub but he's actually a heavily dom-leaning switch. I haven't fully brainstormed his preferences yet but right now it's giving he's primarily a gentle pleasure dom and a stubborn, very bratty sub.
A few possible pairing ideas…
I have multiple ideas for different pairings so we could take this in several different directions! Also open to hearing your ideas as well.
strictly platonic—
◈ a pairing with one of the androids Vanya considers family but feels terror towards after the massacre and learning he was deliberately manipulated to save them.
potentially romantic pairings—
◈ a pairing with a different, unrelated android from any background, leading Vanya to struggle with his contrasting fondness and fear of androids as a whole.
◈ a pairing with a rival colleague who's currently beating him in his quest to be acknowledged as the best in his field of biotechnology.
◈ a pairing with a pitiful excuse for an android in disrepair who reminds him of his struggle with parkinson's, leading him to try repairing them against his better judgement.
◈ a pairing with an android lab assistant he's determined not to accept help from or have anything to do with.
◈ since his social status demands he remain entirely organic despite his poor health (due to human elitism), it could be interesting to pair him with a cyborg, especially since he's dedicated his life to developing cybernetics.
◈ he's from an elite oligarchical family, but was always a black sheep and tends to live below his means nowadays… it might be interesting to pair him with a fellow elite and explore the political intrigue of high class society, or go the opposite route and pair him with someone from the lowest dregs of society.
◈ given he's a pacifist, it might be interesting to pair him with someone more inclined to violence.
My OC, Vanya, was shunned and abused as a child, but found companionship amongst a group of android farmhands, considering them his found family… only to witness them massacre his actual family after gaining sentience, leaving him the sole survivor. Despite this, he chooses to protect them in the aftermath due to his gentle, pacifist nature… and paralyzing fear of what might happen to him should he go against them. Years later he's caught between insidious plans to bring mankind to ruin and a possibly unethical plan to fully eradicate androids to avoid that, unsure where his actual loyalties lie due to his own conflicting feelings of fondness and terror.
It's meant to be a slow burn psychological horror where either side might bring ruin to the other whilst possibly playing mind games and maintaining a front they won't? In my head Vanya's android family also run a butcher shop that specializes in human meat so there's horror elements there as well.
A few possible themes…
◈ coping with disability.
◈ exploring existential questions of what it means to be sentient, whether AI can achieve that, if a presumably sentient AI should be granted rights or put down for the benefit of humanity.
◈ the concept of an artificial being having enough computational prowess to predict and manipulate human behavior to meet their aims— is humanity powerless against that or do they possess some quality to resist it?
◈ pacifism vs violence for a cause.
◈ the idea of bodies being commodified in a capitalist hellscape— lower classes forced to become cyborgs to perform dangerous work, debtors forced to sell organs on the black market, only high class people given the luxury of remaining whole / entirely organic to the point it spurs an organic human elitism movement.
◈ exploring why someone might remain in unhealthy / toxic / abusive relationships.
A few basic details about my OC…
He's a doctor and cybernetic machinist with parkinson's disease. He's skittish, insecure, and a hopelessly competitive workaholic who'd rather run himself into the ground than have a moment of silence with his own thoughts. He desperately wants to be acknowledged as the best in his field of biotechnology, but struggles due to his health and a stubborn refusal to use anything powered by AI despite it being industry standard. He's considered an eccentric technophobe amongst his colleagues. He's also nearly always an anxious mess inside but has an involuntary, perpetual poker face that makes him seem stone cold even if he's barely holding himself together. Has a sort of morbid, deadpan humor.
He's a slightly feminine gnc male. Bisexual. Short stature. Russian. By his nervous mannerisms you might guess he's a sub but he's actually a heavily dom-leaning switch. I haven't fully brainstormed his preferences yet but right now it's giving he's primarily a gentle pleasure dom and a stubborn, very bratty sub.
A few possible pairing ideas…
I have multiple ideas for different pairings so we could take this in several different directions! Also open to hearing your ideas as well.
strictly platonic—
◈ a pairing with one of the androids Vanya considers family but feels terror towards after the massacre and learning he was deliberately manipulated to save them.
potentially romantic pairings—
◈ a pairing with a different, unrelated android from any background, leading Vanya to struggle with his contrasting fondness and fear of androids as a whole.
◈ a pairing with a rival colleague who's currently beating him in his quest to be acknowledged as the best in his field of biotechnology.
◈ a pairing with a pitiful excuse for an android in disrepair who reminds him of his struggle with parkinson's, leading him to try repairing them against his better judgement.
◈ a pairing with an android lab assistant he's determined not to accept help from or have anything to do with.
◈ since his social status demands he remain entirely organic despite his poor health (due to human elitism), it could be interesting to pair him with a cyborg, especially since he's dedicated his life to developing cybernetics.
◈ he's from an elite oligarchical family, but was always a black sheep and tends to live below his means nowadays… it might be interesting to pair him with a fellow elite and explore the political intrigue of high class society, or go the opposite route and pair him with someone from the lowest dregs of society.
◈ given he's a pacifist, it might be interesting to pair him with someone more inclined to violence.
#2 | sci-fi | MxM or MxNB OPEN
stockholm syndrome ★ captive x captor // wealthy elite x revolutionary
Set in a super classist, hyper capitalist dystopia. Haven't done much worldbuilding for it yet, but I'd love to go super heavy on the CAPITALIST NIGHTMARE and political themes. Ideally there'll be a revolutionary movement of some sort… this could be a human rights movement, a group of anarchists, a terrorist organization out for revenge… there's plenty of possible flavors, and I'm down for them to be fairly justified in their endeavors or for it to be more of a grey area.
So my OC, Marion, is the son of a widely disdained billionaire who's well known for crimes against humanity... I have not figured out what those crimes are yet, but maybe widespread death for profit, commodifying basic needs and leaving hundreds of millions to die sorta vibes? The details aren't firmed at this point. Marion himself probably hasn't directly engaged in these crimes but he's benefited from them and hasn't publicly stood against them. He's essentially disdained by association and the arrogant / aloof way he acts towards people does him no favors to suggest he's any different from his father. On the surface it's giving he'll inherit power and pull the same shit; his politics do differ from his father, but he keeps his true opinions close to his chest so nobody really knows that.
Eventually the revolutionary movement, presumably trying to dismantle the oppressive oligarchic regime, makes a coordinated attack on many of the ruling elites. Marion is included in this but manages to survive, narrowly escaping into the gritty undercity where the poorest of the poor and criminal underground sorts dwell. He's deemed missing in the aftermath when his body isn't found and both the revolutionaries and remaining elites post rewards for his whereabouts… though Marion is well aware that either party would see him dead should they successfully find him.
His own face becomes a threat to his existence given he's so widely hated and recognizable— beyond his status in pop culture, his likeness is plastered everywhere in the aftermath of the attacks: posters, newsreels, and graffiti dotted with crude sentiment litter the city. To make matters worse the undercity is the stomping grounds of the insurgents who attacked him in the first place. It's a wonder he went any length of time at all before they found him.
But face to face with the revolutionary leader, a deadpan Marion spins a narrative that he's not actually their public enemy number one, just someone who looks a lot like the guy. And admittedly, yes… it might sound like the dumbest plan in existence— to pretend to be someone pretending to be himself— but there aren't many excuses he could reasonably make for being the spitting image of himself to someone who wants to kill him, is there?
He says his name is Étienne, a sex worker who banks on the resemblance, letting people play out their fantasies of what they'd do to the real Marion. He says he's done things to change his appearance to look more like Marion and it's been a good gimmick— and after the dude went missing, he thought it'd be even better thanks to the allure of mystery, of people wondering if they might actually be doing things to the real Marion… but really it's been a rough time, living with a constant fear of ending up dead somewhere due to mistaken identity, so he'd appreciate if today wasn't the day for that.
A convenient story that's not entirely believable but also not entirely unbelievable. Though the revolutionary probably doesn't buy it in the slightest, it's an interesting premise— more interesting than simply killing the guy, they can stress test his story, play around a little and kill him later when it's obvious this was just an idiotic attempt at saving himself.
Cue "Étienne" granted a stay of execution, on the condition he's held captive until his true identity is confirmed.
So the vibe here is a very introspective, dark psychological game where the revolutionary wants to break Étienne into admitting he's Marion. They likely expect some sheltered rich dude who won't last a day under real pressure, but Étienne endures better than expected, keeping up the ruse, playing mind games to survive, and doing everything possible to characterize himself as someone so unlike what the revolutionary expects of Marion that they'll start to believe he's a different person after all. Will he manage to do that before the mounting trauma becomes too much for him to bear?
A little about Marion—
He's naturally standoffish and reserved, but theoretically very caring if you get past his walls. Stubborn and argumentative to the point of acting stupid at times, he loves debates and playing devil's advocate. Arrogant. Highly logical. Dependable, the type of person who grew up quickly and had to learn self-reliance from a young age. Traumatic experiences with his mother have left him with hangups regarding substance abuse and an obsession with dignity, reputation, and public perception. He's got somewhat unexpected hobbies like parkour, urban exploration, and gardening. May or may not know how to use firearms, pick locks, and make molotov cocktails…
He's a very masculine, tall, muscular trans guy. Gay. Biracial, French on his father's side and Haitian Creole on his mother's. He's highkey submissive but doesn't know the extent of what he likes because he has a tendency to act out roles that don't suit his actual preferences.
Set in a super classist, hyper capitalist dystopia. Haven't done much worldbuilding for it yet, but I'd love to go super heavy on the CAPITALIST NIGHTMARE and political themes. Ideally there'll be a revolutionary movement of some sort… this could be a human rights movement, a group of anarchists, a terrorist organization out for revenge… there's plenty of possible flavors, and I'm down for them to be fairly justified in their endeavors or for it to be more of a grey area.
So my OC, Marion, is the son of a widely disdained billionaire who's well known for crimes against humanity... I have not figured out what those crimes are yet, but maybe widespread death for profit, commodifying basic needs and leaving hundreds of millions to die sorta vibes? The details aren't firmed at this point. Marion himself probably hasn't directly engaged in these crimes but he's benefited from them and hasn't publicly stood against them. He's essentially disdained by association and the arrogant / aloof way he acts towards people does him no favors to suggest he's any different from his father. On the surface it's giving he'll inherit power and pull the same shit; his politics do differ from his father, but he keeps his true opinions close to his chest so nobody really knows that.
Eventually the revolutionary movement, presumably trying to dismantle the oppressive oligarchic regime, makes a coordinated attack on many of the ruling elites. Marion is included in this but manages to survive, narrowly escaping into the gritty undercity where the poorest of the poor and criminal underground sorts dwell. He's deemed missing in the aftermath when his body isn't found and both the revolutionaries and remaining elites post rewards for his whereabouts… though Marion is well aware that either party would see him dead should they successfully find him.
His own face becomes a threat to his existence given he's so widely hated and recognizable— beyond his status in pop culture, his likeness is plastered everywhere in the aftermath of the attacks: posters, newsreels, and graffiti dotted with crude sentiment litter the city. To make matters worse the undercity is the stomping grounds of the insurgents who attacked him in the first place. It's a wonder he went any length of time at all before they found him.
But face to face with the revolutionary leader, a deadpan Marion spins a narrative that he's not actually their public enemy number one, just someone who looks a lot like the guy. And admittedly, yes… it might sound like the dumbest plan in existence— to pretend to be someone pretending to be himself— but there aren't many excuses he could reasonably make for being the spitting image of himself to someone who wants to kill him, is there?
He says his name is Étienne, a sex worker who banks on the resemblance, letting people play out their fantasies of what they'd do to the real Marion. He says he's done things to change his appearance to look more like Marion and it's been a good gimmick— and after the dude went missing, he thought it'd be even better thanks to the allure of mystery, of people wondering if they might actually be doing things to the real Marion… but really it's been a rough time, living with a constant fear of ending up dead somewhere due to mistaken identity, so he'd appreciate if today wasn't the day for that.
A convenient story that's not entirely believable but also not entirely unbelievable. Though the revolutionary probably doesn't buy it in the slightest, it's an interesting premise— more interesting than simply killing the guy, they can stress test his story, play around a little and kill him later when it's obvious this was just an idiotic attempt at saving himself.
Cue "Étienne" granted a stay of execution, on the condition he's held captive until his true identity is confirmed.
So the vibe here is a very introspective, dark psychological game where the revolutionary wants to break Étienne into admitting he's Marion. They likely expect some sheltered rich dude who won't last a day under real pressure, but Étienne endures better than expected, keeping up the ruse, playing mind games to survive, and doing everything possible to characterize himself as someone so unlike what the revolutionary expects of Marion that they'll start to believe he's a different person after all. Will he manage to do that before the mounting trauma becomes too much for him to bear?
A little about Marion—
He's naturally standoffish and reserved, but theoretically very caring if you get past his walls. Stubborn and argumentative to the point of acting stupid at times, he loves debates and playing devil's advocate. Arrogant. Highly logical. Dependable, the type of person who grew up quickly and had to learn self-reliance from a young age. Traumatic experiences with his mother have left him with hangups regarding substance abuse and an obsession with dignity, reputation, and public perception. He's got somewhat unexpected hobbies like parkour, urban exploration, and gardening. May or may not know how to use firearms, pick locks, and make molotov cocktails…
He's a very masculine, tall, muscular trans guy. Gay. Biracial, French on his father's side and Haitian Creole on his mother's. He's highkey submissive but doesn't know the extent of what he likes because he has a tendency to act out roles that don't suit his actual preferences.
#3 | historical fantasy, angels and demons | NBxM, NBxNB, or NBxF OPEN
Loosely based on abrahamic mythology with angels and demons, but allowing for other mythological elements to be added as we please. I'd like things to be morally grey with demons portrayed in a more positive light than usual and angels portrayed in a slightly darker light, making it difficult to fully root for either side.
My OC is a take on Lucifer from a satanist perspective, so for example… in the story of adam and eve, Lucifer tempting eve is portrayed as an evil deed that caused them to turn to sin, be cursed, and cast out… but the satanist perspective is that Lucifer is a proponent of intellectualism and free will, so he actually saved them from ignorance and gave them this informed sense of free will they didn't have before. He actually has good intentions and a noble cause deep down, but the narrative is twisted to villainize him more than he deserves.
About my OC—
He's a morally grey character with good intentions who grew dark over time as a trauma response. He's incredibly squishy and vulnerable at this point but does everything possible to hide it, playing into narratives that villainize him and acting worse than he really is in hopes it'll protect him by keeping others at bay. His major conflict revolves around existential questions of free will and a fear that he's not actually an autonomous being, rather designed to be rebellious, play the villain, and be made an example out of for some larger plan… so a large part of him wanting to win against the Lord is just proving to himself that he's his own person.
There are negative points to him and grey areas that make it a little hazy so it's not a complete role reversal of good and evil… pride, vanity, and bitterness are his biggest character flaws, though I don't characterize these in a fully negative way, more that he can take them to extremes and they're negative when he does that. He was initially a very bubbly, loving, fully good intentioned angel… but he's suffered a lot of trauma over time and slowly evolved into a much darker version of who he was originally. That good intentioned core is still there, it's just covered in scars, mistrust, coping mechanisms, a learned penchant for extremes, and a desire to harm others before they (again) harm him.
Basically he was villainized to the point he's become villainous as a trauma response, and part of him even started to believe the narrative that he's really that bad despite never once intending to be, hence his fear that this is all out of his hands and by design. He's become desperate to win at nearly any cost because that's the only possible way forward for him— he's stuck being the enemy so long as the other side exists to paint him that way. If he wins he'll prove to himself he's not actually condemned to this fate and maybe have the chance to stop playing this game, this role he's been forced into. He often feels bitter and wants heaven to suffer, to face justice for all they've done… but as time passes, he's becoming more tired than anything, and mostly just wants the peace to exist as he is without being loathed for it. and by extension he wants others to have that peace too, since he's not the only one loathed and villainized for being misaligned with holy law.
He's a bigender, shapeshifting enby with a core masculine identity that's always accompanied with varying degrees of femininity. He has a sultry masculine form, a femme-leaning androgynous form, and a highly femme form. He uses he/him pronouns in every form. He's pansexual. A little on the shorter side. Haven't fully worked out his sexual preferences yet but it's giving soft dom and power bottom.
The gist of some of his background—
I'm thinking heaven is this really rigid, lawful, hierarchical vibe, where everyone has a certain place and role to play. Originally everything was entirely perfect, 100% to plan, not so much as a speck of dust out of place. Angels were made without free will because they literally exist to fulfil certain roles and serve the Lord's purposes, so they were super dehumanized and never did anything recreational or even talked to each other unnecessarily.
But then Lucifer was an anomaly, made in such a way where his role in heaven was just a little more open to interpretation than others and that tiniest bit of wiggle room led him to develop a mindset that differed from other angels at the time. His existence permanently changed things because he had a way of humanizing other angels by opening them up to new feelings / experiences / ways of thinking, and it's hard to go back to 100% painfully rigid ways of doing things once that happens.
He connected with other angels and developed a sense of community, was highly beloved for that, and ended up receiving far more individual attention than any given angel was ever meant to receive… so then he essentially developed a sense of self-worth and self-love when angels were never permitted to feel such a way, then spread that feeling to others, then when the rigidity of heaven would not bend to make that permissible, Lucifer and the number of angels who sided with him tried to overthrow the system to make it permissible. But they failed, received punishment, and were cast out of heaven as fallen angels.
This sense of self-worth and self-love he had was deemed the deadly sin of pride— declared the worst sin, the root cause of all others— and he was gradually antagonized to twist that pride into something genuinely dark and add credence to the villainous narrative that was pushed all along.
The core themes of his character—
◈ his conflict of grappling with the truth of his autonomy and falling into patterns / self-fulfilling prophecies that seem to confirm his greatest fears.
◈ struggling with the impact of trauma and how it's darkened and changed him in ways he cannot seem to accept.
◈ feeling broken / unsuited to fulfilling his given role due to his inherent way of being.
◈ a recurring theme of taking hardships and owning them, turning them in his favor; a pattern of self-renewal, resilience, and always persevering no matter the setback.
Possible pairing #1… Lucifer x Archangel—
For this I'd essentially like to pair him with an angel who initially buys into the narrative and his pretense of being villainous / incredibly dangerous, but slowly realizes the truth of how traumatized / vulnerable / good intentioned he actually is, then has to decide if they're willing to complete their objective of essentially destroying him whilst knowing that.
. . .
Lucifer, a perpetually sore loser. Figuratively, literally— defeated and sore, stripped of power, flung off the edge of the universe and left to rot in chronic pain from the wings torn off his back and the raw crushed innards of his throat. Do you know why the devil whispers, tempts quietly in hushed and humble tones? He physically cannot scream. Not anymore, not now that he desperately needs to. The frustration of that can only be channelled in bitter ways— in schemes and resilience, renewed attempts at rebellion, anything. Grasping at pearly white feathers in hopes they too become marred, muddled, and newly empathetic to the plight of sore losers… may they all rot together, pulled kicking and screaming towards the same bitter end, if only for the vague hope that enough losers might tip the scales to change the outcome.
In the aftermath of multiple failed attempts at rebellion, Lucifer continues to chip away at heaven, doing any small thing he can to cause trouble: tempting angels to fall, uplifting false gods, leading humanity to sin, etc. In recompense heaven has chipped away at him, too— doggedly hunting him, beating him down, stripping him of everything they can in hopes he'll become too broken to struggle on. An immortal lifetime of this has left him so weak that nowadays he'd be helpless to the whims of an angel if he faced one directly, but he's far too stubborn to give up just to spare himself the potential devastation of being caught and punished again.
He started masquerading as humans throughout history, living out mortal lives to try and turn the flow of society away from christianity whilst hiding in plain sight from angelic forces. He's become so good at evading angels in this way that he's somehow managed to remain a danger to them despite his weakness, and eventually he took down so many angels with his clever guerrilla tactics they had to get creative to counter him. Enter his adversary, the strongest Archangel in heaven, an unstoppable force sent to finally break him once and for all.
I'm thinking the story will take place in multiple settings throughout history, we can brainstorm whatever time periods and scenarios interest us, with time skips in between. Both Lucifer and the Archangel repeatedly disguise themselves as humans (either our own design or even takes on historical figures) with the latter attempting to see through the disguise of the former and get close enough to overtake him before he catches on they're an angel. It's a high pressure scenario on both sides because Lucifer can only hope to win through strategy and cunning— it's over if the angel catches him off guard with a direct assault. Meanwhile the angel must be cautious because Lucifer has a history of getting the better of angels, imprisoning them, or successfully tempting them to fall via unknown means and unknown power.
Initially it seems the first to see through the other's disguise will win, but this proves inaccurate as they meet and suffer a series of stalemates, neither one fully getting the better of the other. They inadvertently get to know each other more than either expected and both become adept at quickly seeing through the other's disguise. This changes the nature of the game a bit as now one must find some way to best the other while both are aware of their true identities. It's a game of Lucifer trying to tempt the seemingly untemptable, most stubbornly reliable angel in existence without falling prey to their aims, posturing all the while to not let on how powerless he's become, lest the angel realize they can overtake him easily at any time if they only took a direct approach. Meanwhile the angel— wary of Lucifer's schemes and supposed power— has taken creative measures to 'tempt' the opposition, trying to grasp a fleeting moment of trust, even just a few seconds of a decidedly lowered guard from the single most jaded and distrusting being in the universe, all the while toeing the line of falling and avoiding his devious aims.
Possible pairing #2… Lucifer x the Lord—
The story of two beings who were initially very close once upon a time but devolved into the single most dysfunctional relationship ever, both bringing out the absolute worst in each other. Will they remain enemies to the end or grow as people and somehow salvage things despite their turbulent and painful history? This could possibly be an enemies to friends / lovers situation or a very toxic, dysfunctional relationship to the end.
I imagine the Lord being very rigid and set in their ways, not viewing Lucifer as an equal because they literally made him as a subservient being to fulfill a given role. Meanwhile Lucifer is the epitome of rebellion and flexibility to do anything except what he's seemingly meant to, trying to be acknowledged as an equal to the Lord so he can prove to himself he's an autonomous being despite the narrative that everything is actually still going to plan.
I think it would be interesting if the truth of the matter was ambiguous—
Maybe Lucifer was made without free will but developed it anomalously, so now the Lord is genuinely dealing with things going awry but decides to play it cool like they have a master plan and everything is under control.
Maybe Lucifer was in fact created to fulfil his role as a villain, so his free will is an illusion and things truly are going to plan… which could result in an ending where Lucifer discovers that, to his devastation.
Or a different ending where somewhere along the way he actually does manage to deviate from the Lord's intention, meaning they may have to face the idea that Lucifer isn't so inherently unequal to them as they always believed.
Since you'd be playing the Lord in this pairing, I think it could be fun if you decided the truth of the matter and kept it a surprise to be revealed later, so I'm genuinely left wondering what Lucifer's level of autonomy is while I write for him.
There's another layer to this where Lucifer believes he was made to adore the Lord, and he genuinely did adore them more than anyone before he fell… but since he doesn't actually know if he's a fully autonomous being or when he developed autonomy if he is, he doesn't know if his feelings were real or not! So you're left with a present day Lucifer that still has a small amount of lingering fondness towards the Lord to the point it's hard to fully hate them (though there's still mostly hate there atp don't get me wrong), but he doesn't like to acknowledge that fondness because it feels unfortunate either way.
If he's not autonomous, his feelings weren't ever real, but then he has to deal with the mindfuck of knowing his most intimate feelings were manufactured.
If he is autonomous, his feelings were and are real, and there's truly a lot to unpack there…
My OC is a take on Lucifer from a satanist perspective, so for example… in the story of adam and eve, Lucifer tempting eve is portrayed as an evil deed that caused them to turn to sin, be cursed, and cast out… but the satanist perspective is that Lucifer is a proponent of intellectualism and free will, so he actually saved them from ignorance and gave them this informed sense of free will they didn't have before. He actually has good intentions and a noble cause deep down, but the narrative is twisted to villainize him more than he deserves.
About my OC—
He's a morally grey character with good intentions who grew dark over time as a trauma response. He's incredibly squishy and vulnerable at this point but does everything possible to hide it, playing into narratives that villainize him and acting worse than he really is in hopes it'll protect him by keeping others at bay. His major conflict revolves around existential questions of free will and a fear that he's not actually an autonomous being, rather designed to be rebellious, play the villain, and be made an example out of for some larger plan… so a large part of him wanting to win against the Lord is just proving to himself that he's his own person.
There are negative points to him and grey areas that make it a little hazy so it's not a complete role reversal of good and evil… pride, vanity, and bitterness are his biggest character flaws, though I don't characterize these in a fully negative way, more that he can take them to extremes and they're negative when he does that. He was initially a very bubbly, loving, fully good intentioned angel… but he's suffered a lot of trauma over time and slowly evolved into a much darker version of who he was originally. That good intentioned core is still there, it's just covered in scars, mistrust, coping mechanisms, a learned penchant for extremes, and a desire to harm others before they (again) harm him.
Basically he was villainized to the point he's become villainous as a trauma response, and part of him even started to believe the narrative that he's really that bad despite never once intending to be, hence his fear that this is all out of his hands and by design. He's become desperate to win at nearly any cost because that's the only possible way forward for him— he's stuck being the enemy so long as the other side exists to paint him that way. If he wins he'll prove to himself he's not actually condemned to this fate and maybe have the chance to stop playing this game, this role he's been forced into. He often feels bitter and wants heaven to suffer, to face justice for all they've done… but as time passes, he's becoming more tired than anything, and mostly just wants the peace to exist as he is without being loathed for it. and by extension he wants others to have that peace too, since he's not the only one loathed and villainized for being misaligned with holy law.
He's a bigender, shapeshifting enby with a core masculine identity that's always accompanied with varying degrees of femininity. He has a sultry masculine form, a femme-leaning androgynous form, and a highly femme form. He uses he/him pronouns in every form. He's pansexual. A little on the shorter side. Haven't fully worked out his sexual preferences yet but it's giving soft dom and power bottom.
The gist of some of his background—
I'm thinking heaven is this really rigid, lawful, hierarchical vibe, where everyone has a certain place and role to play. Originally everything was entirely perfect, 100% to plan, not so much as a speck of dust out of place. Angels were made without free will because they literally exist to fulfil certain roles and serve the Lord's purposes, so they were super dehumanized and never did anything recreational or even talked to each other unnecessarily.
But then Lucifer was an anomaly, made in such a way where his role in heaven was just a little more open to interpretation than others and that tiniest bit of wiggle room led him to develop a mindset that differed from other angels at the time. His existence permanently changed things because he had a way of humanizing other angels by opening them up to new feelings / experiences / ways of thinking, and it's hard to go back to 100% painfully rigid ways of doing things once that happens.
He connected with other angels and developed a sense of community, was highly beloved for that, and ended up receiving far more individual attention than any given angel was ever meant to receive… so then he essentially developed a sense of self-worth and self-love when angels were never permitted to feel such a way, then spread that feeling to others, then when the rigidity of heaven would not bend to make that permissible, Lucifer and the number of angels who sided with him tried to overthrow the system to make it permissible. But they failed, received punishment, and were cast out of heaven as fallen angels.
This sense of self-worth and self-love he had was deemed the deadly sin of pride— declared the worst sin, the root cause of all others— and he was gradually antagonized to twist that pride into something genuinely dark and add credence to the villainous narrative that was pushed all along.
The core themes of his character—
◈ his conflict of grappling with the truth of his autonomy and falling into patterns / self-fulfilling prophecies that seem to confirm his greatest fears.
◈ struggling with the impact of trauma and how it's darkened and changed him in ways he cannot seem to accept.
◈ feeling broken / unsuited to fulfilling his given role due to his inherent way of being.
◈ a recurring theme of taking hardships and owning them, turning them in his favor; a pattern of self-renewal, resilience, and always persevering no matter the setback.
Possible pairing #1… Lucifer x Archangel—
For this I'd essentially like to pair him with an angel who initially buys into the narrative and his pretense of being villainous / incredibly dangerous, but slowly realizes the truth of how traumatized / vulnerable / good intentioned he actually is, then has to decide if they're willing to complete their objective of essentially destroying him whilst knowing that.
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Lucifer, a perpetually sore loser. Figuratively, literally— defeated and sore, stripped of power, flung off the edge of the universe and left to rot in chronic pain from the wings torn off his back and the raw crushed innards of his throat. Do you know why the devil whispers, tempts quietly in hushed and humble tones? He physically cannot scream. Not anymore, not now that he desperately needs to. The frustration of that can only be channelled in bitter ways— in schemes and resilience, renewed attempts at rebellion, anything. Grasping at pearly white feathers in hopes they too become marred, muddled, and newly empathetic to the plight of sore losers… may they all rot together, pulled kicking and screaming towards the same bitter end, if only for the vague hope that enough losers might tip the scales to change the outcome.
In the aftermath of multiple failed attempts at rebellion, Lucifer continues to chip away at heaven, doing any small thing he can to cause trouble: tempting angels to fall, uplifting false gods, leading humanity to sin, etc. In recompense heaven has chipped away at him, too— doggedly hunting him, beating him down, stripping him of everything they can in hopes he'll become too broken to struggle on. An immortal lifetime of this has left him so weak that nowadays he'd be helpless to the whims of an angel if he faced one directly, but he's far too stubborn to give up just to spare himself the potential devastation of being caught and punished again.
He started masquerading as humans throughout history, living out mortal lives to try and turn the flow of society away from christianity whilst hiding in plain sight from angelic forces. He's become so good at evading angels in this way that he's somehow managed to remain a danger to them despite his weakness, and eventually he took down so many angels with his clever guerrilla tactics they had to get creative to counter him. Enter his adversary, the strongest Archangel in heaven, an unstoppable force sent to finally break him once and for all.
I'm thinking the story will take place in multiple settings throughout history, we can brainstorm whatever time periods and scenarios interest us, with time skips in between. Both Lucifer and the Archangel repeatedly disguise themselves as humans (either our own design or even takes on historical figures) with the latter attempting to see through the disguise of the former and get close enough to overtake him before he catches on they're an angel. It's a high pressure scenario on both sides because Lucifer can only hope to win through strategy and cunning— it's over if the angel catches him off guard with a direct assault. Meanwhile the angel must be cautious because Lucifer has a history of getting the better of angels, imprisoning them, or successfully tempting them to fall via unknown means and unknown power.
Initially it seems the first to see through the other's disguise will win, but this proves inaccurate as they meet and suffer a series of stalemates, neither one fully getting the better of the other. They inadvertently get to know each other more than either expected and both become adept at quickly seeing through the other's disguise. This changes the nature of the game a bit as now one must find some way to best the other while both are aware of their true identities. It's a game of Lucifer trying to tempt the seemingly untemptable, most stubbornly reliable angel in existence without falling prey to their aims, posturing all the while to not let on how powerless he's become, lest the angel realize they can overtake him easily at any time if they only took a direct approach. Meanwhile the angel— wary of Lucifer's schemes and supposed power— has taken creative measures to 'tempt' the opposition, trying to grasp a fleeting moment of trust, even just a few seconds of a decidedly lowered guard from the single most jaded and distrusting being in the universe, all the while toeing the line of falling and avoiding his devious aims.
Possible pairing #2… Lucifer x the Lord—
The story of two beings who were initially very close once upon a time but devolved into the single most dysfunctional relationship ever, both bringing out the absolute worst in each other. Will they remain enemies to the end or grow as people and somehow salvage things despite their turbulent and painful history? This could possibly be an enemies to friends / lovers situation or a very toxic, dysfunctional relationship to the end.
I imagine the Lord being very rigid and set in their ways, not viewing Lucifer as an equal because they literally made him as a subservient being to fulfill a given role. Meanwhile Lucifer is the epitome of rebellion and flexibility to do anything except what he's seemingly meant to, trying to be acknowledged as an equal to the Lord so he can prove to himself he's an autonomous being despite the narrative that everything is actually still going to plan.
I think it would be interesting if the truth of the matter was ambiguous—
Maybe Lucifer was made without free will but developed it anomalously, so now the Lord is genuinely dealing with things going awry but decides to play it cool like they have a master plan and everything is under control.
Maybe Lucifer was in fact created to fulfil his role as a villain, so his free will is an illusion and things truly are going to plan… which could result in an ending where Lucifer discovers that, to his devastation.
Or a different ending where somewhere along the way he actually does manage to deviate from the Lord's intention, meaning they may have to face the idea that Lucifer isn't so inherently unequal to them as they always believed.
Since you'd be playing the Lord in this pairing, I think it could be fun if you decided the truth of the matter and kept it a surprise to be revealed later, so I'm genuinely left wondering what Lucifer's level of autonomy is while I write for him.
There's another layer to this where Lucifer believes he was made to adore the Lord, and he genuinely did adore them more than anyone before he fell… but since he doesn't actually know if he's a fully autonomous being or when he developed autonomy if he is, he doesn't know if his feelings were real or not! So you're left with a present day Lucifer that still has a small amount of lingering fondness towards the Lord to the point it's hard to fully hate them (though there's still mostly hate there atp don't get me wrong), but he doesn't like to acknowledge that fondness because it feels unfortunate either way.
If he's not autonomous, his feelings weren't ever real, but then he has to deal with the mindfuck of knowing his most intimate feelings were manufactured.
If he is autonomous, his feelings were and are real, and there's truly a lot to unpack there…
thanks for reading and hope to hear from ya!
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