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breaking bad fanfic
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𝐍𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠. . .
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Raw Notes for character #52
BG1:
She grew up in a chaotic household, where love and attention came inconsistently, often tied to performance or appearances. This early instability taught her to rely on charm and charisma to navigate the world. She developed a magnetic personality that drew people in, but beneath it, she carried a deep fear of rejection and abandonment.
In her early twenties, she sought excitement and freedom, frequently jumping from one adventure or relationship to another, avoiding emotional depth. Along the way, she battled her own struggles—perhaps a brief entanglement with substance abuse or a damaging relationship that left her wary yet craving control. Her impulsive and erratic behavior stems from a fear of stillness, as stillness forces her to confront her unresolved pain.
When she meets someone like Jesse, she recognizes his empathetic nature and vulnerability, which she uses to create an intense, almost intoxicating bond. However, her need for control and her own insecurities make the relationship tumultuous, filled with highs and lows that leave both of them emotionally drained.
BG2:
She grew up in a seemingly stable home, one that looked perfect from the outside but was marked by subtle neglect and emotional suppression. Her parents were overachievers, expecting perfection from her while offering little emotional support. This pressure left her with an insatiable need for validation and a fear of failure, driving her to become someone who constantly seeks attention and approval.
In her late teens, she rebelled against the rigid expectations of her upbringing, diving into a lifestyle of spontaneity and risk-taking. She became adept at charming her way through life, building relationships based on intensity rather than trust. Her past relationships often burned out quickly, leaving behind a trail of unhealed wounds—both hers and those of others.
When she meets Jesse, she senses his kindness and emotional depth, which draws her in. However, her insecurities manifest as jealousy or possessiveness, and her need for excitement leads to dramatic conflicts. She unintentionally becomes a destabilizing force in his life, creating a toxic bond that's difficult for either of them to break.
BG3:
She comes from a background of constant turmoil—maybe her family was marked by financial instability or volatile relationships. From an early age, she learned to fend for herself, relying on cunning and charm to survive in a world that seemed stacked against her. Over time, this developed into a fierce independence, but also a deep mistrust of others and an inability to form healthy emotional connections.
Her charisma makes her magnetic, and she's always surrounded by people, but she keeps her true self hidden behind layers of deflection and wit. She craves control in relationships, often seeking out partners who are emotionally vulnerable or empathetic, as they're easier for her to dominate. While she may genuinely care for Jesse on some level, her fear of vulnerability leads her to sabotage the relationship, creating cycles of manipulation and reconciliation.
Her intensity and self-destructive tendencies might parallel some of Jesse's past experiences, drawing him to her despite the toxic patterns. Their bond would be fueled by shared pain and fleeting moments of understanding, making it all the harder to break away.
Traits
A Troubled Soul
Chaotic Energy: Someone who thrives on unpredictability. Her instability could make her magnetizing but harmful.
Manipulative Charm: She might be outwardly warm or alluring, but use emotional manipulation to keep people attached—playing on guilt or needs for redemption.
Emotionally Unstable
Addictive Personality: Perhaps she has her own battles with substance abuse or risky behavior
Charismatic yet Damaged
Mirror of the Past
Finger-fucking
Fingers in Mouth
Character integrity
Absence