MxF Of Blood, Bad Decisions & Beautifully Imperfect Women | Older Women • BBW/SSBBW • Kinky

[sawyer73]

✦ A ROLEPLAY SEARCH BY SAWYER ✦

Of Blood, Bad Decisions & Beautifully Imperfect Women

OLDER WOMEN • BBW / SSBBW • BODY WORSHIP • KINK-FRIENDLY

For women who have lived, loved, changed, and never stopped being desirable.
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01. BEAUTIFULLY IMPERFECT WOMEN

I have a particular weakness for women who don't necessarily fit the conventional idea of beauty. Women who have lived long enough to have stories written into their faces and bodies, women whose curves refuse to be discreet, and women who have absolutely no intention of apologising for either.

Older women are especially appealing to me. Sixty, seventy, eighty, or even beyond? Wonderful. I enjoy substantial age gaps, particularly between a younger man and a much older woman. There's something fascinating about the differences in their experiences, expectations, insecurities, and the ways they might unexpectedly find themselves drawn to each other.

I also have a considerable weakness for fat women. BBWs, SSBBWs, and genuinely extreme sizes are all very welcome. I like weight to actually exist within a character's description and everyday life. It can influence how she moves, dresses, sees herself, or interacts with the world, but I never want it to replace her personality.

A fat woman can be elegant, shy, commanding, intellectual, vulgar, athletic, lazy, spectacularly gluttonous, or anything else. An elderly woman can be confident and flirtatious, fiercely independent, insecure about her ageing body, or entirely indifferent to what anyone thinks of her.

I don't want a collection of physical attributes pretending to be a character. I want a woman who feels like a person, with her own desires, contradictions, habits, history, and perhaps a few spectacularly questionable decisions waiting to happen.

Softness, age, weight, imperfections, confidence, vulnerability... None of these make a character less interesting or less desirable. Quite the opposite, as far as I'm concerned.

02. DESIRES & INDULGENCES

Since this is Inner Sanctum, I might as well be clear about what attracts me.

Beyond age and body size, I have a strong appreciation for natural, imperfect bodies. Body hair, cellulite, stretch marks, sagging skin, sweat, natural musk, and the countless little details that make a body feel real rather than carefully polished for a photograph.

I'm also interested in characters who aren't necessarily concerned with conventional standards of cleanliness or presentation. A woman might be impeccably dressed and wonderfully sophisticated, or gloriously unkempt, messy, and completely comfortable with herself. Both can be fascinating for very different reasons.

My kinkier interests include body worship, fat play, bodily fluids, watersports, and scat. I'm also curious about BDSM and particularly enjoy writing male characters who naturally gravitate towards the submissive side when paired with a woman who enjoys taking the lead.

I'm not necessarily looking for elaborate rituals or rigid power structures. Sometimes the most interesting dynamics develop naturally from the personalities involved, especially when a confident or experienced woman discovers that she rather enjoys being the one in control.

A LITTLE NOTE ABOUT COMPATIBILITY

None of this is a checklist, and I certainly don't expect anyone to share every kink I've mentioned. A partner who loves writing SSBBW characters but has absolutely no interest in scat is still someone I'd be delighted to hear from.

I'd much rather discover what we genuinely enjoy together, respect each other's boundaries, and let the intimate side of the story develop in a way that makes sense for our characters.

Sexual violence, non-consent, and incest aren't things I'm particularly interested in writing.

03. SOMETHING MUCH MORE HUMAN

As much as I enjoy strange worlds and supernatural creatures, some of my favourite ideas are surprisingly ordinary. Sometimes all a good story needs is two people who really ought to know better.

The Woman Next Door

One idea I particularly like involves two neighbours. She might be in her sixties, seventies, eighties, or even older, with an entire life already behind her. He has recently moved into the neighbourhood.

They begin by occasionally seeing each other, then talking, then finding small reasons to spend time together until the other's presence quietly becomes part of their routine.

What particularly interests me is a woman who doesn't necessarily think of herself as someone who could still be desired that way, especially by a much younger man. She doesn't need to be lonely or waiting for someone to rescue her. She may have children, grandchildren, friends, and a perfectly fulfilling life.

It simply takes her a while to realise that her younger neighbour may no longer be coming over just because he enjoys the conversation.

Of course, the dynamic could be quite different. Perhaps she's perfectly aware of his attraction long before he realises how obvious he's being. Perhaps she's the one who starts flirting, leaving him wondering whether he's imagining things.

I'd love to discover which direction the characters take us.

Old Grudges, New Temptations

Another idea begins on slightly less innocent ground.

Two former high-school classmates meet again years later on a dating app. She used to be popular, beautiful, and particularly cruel to him. He recognises her immediately. She has absolutely no idea who he is.

She has changed considerably over the years, including gaining a great deal of weight. He initially starts talking to her with the rather petty intention of seducing her as a form of revenge, only to discover that the woman he is getting to know isn't really the girl he once hated anymore.

Unfortunately for his carefully constructed little plan, he starts genuinely liking her.

There are plenty of directions we could take this. Perhaps she eventually remembers him. Perhaps she has regrets of her own. Perhaps the relationship becomes something neither of them expected, complicated by a past that refuses to stay buried.

I'm also very open to other slice-of-life ideas, particularly if you already have a female character you love and simply haven't found the right story for her yet.



04. BLOOD, HISTORY & STRANGE WORLDS

While my interests in characters and kinks are central to this search, I'm also rather fond of giving those characters interesting worlds in which to make their terrible decisions.

Vampires, Anne Rice & History

Interview with the Vampire is one of my current obsessions, both Anne Rice's novels and the television series. I love her vision of vampires as immortal creatures who nevertheless remain painfully human, still perfectly capable of loving, regretting, envying, hating, and developing wonderfully complicated relationships.

I'm also passionate about history, and vampires give me a wonderful excuse to combine those two interests.

We could follow two vampires across centuries of changing societies, place them in the middle of a genuine historical event, or tell something more intimate about a human who becomes entangled with a blood-drinker whose intentions are not entirely innocent.

I'd be equally happy using Anne Rice's universe directly or creating our own mythology inspired by it. What matters most to me is the combination of history, horror, desire, and characters whose immortality has done remarkably little to solve their very human problems.

Warhammer Fantasy

Warhammer is probably the fantasy setting I've spent the most time with, and I'd love to capture what I enjoy about it in RP: dark fantasy that is filthy, violent, occasionally horrifying, but still alive enough that it never becomes an endless exercise in misery.

I love its grand cities where palaces and temples stand only a few streets away from poverty and corruption, its forests where travelling alone is an excellent way to disappear, its wars, Chaos cults, mutants, undead, and all the unfortunate adventurers who continue drinking, laughing, falling in love, and trying to earn enough coin to reach the next inn despite living in an objectively dreadful world.

I'd rather begin with characters who are still relatively small within that world. Mercenaries, mages, ruined nobles, thieves, witch hunters, elves, dwarfs, or other adventurers might find themselves travelling together, accepting a contract, or investigating something that sounded considerably less dangerous when someone first offered to pay them for it.

Knowing the lore is welcome, but absolutely not required. I know the setting well enough to help someone who loves the atmosphere without having spent an alarming percentage of their life reading Warhammer books.

And these are only examples. Historical romance, supernatural horror, contemporary slice of life, or something entirely different could work just as well. I'm far more interested in finding characters and desires that excite us both than insisting upon one particular setting.

05. THE PERSON BEHIND THE KEYBOARD

Hi! I'm Sawyer.

I come primarily from tabletop roleplaying, with quite a few years spent playing Warhammer, Call of Cthulhu, D&D, and various other games, both as a player and a GM. I discovered written roleplay more recently and quickly fell in love with the rather different pleasure of building a story with someone instead of simply telling one on my own.

I primarily write male characters opposite adult female characters, in third person, usually around four or five paragraphs per reply. That isn't a quota, though. I'll happily write more when a scene calls for it and considerably less when two characters are simply having a conversation.

I usually reply several times a week, and what I enjoy most is writing with someone who brings their own ideas to the story, creates characters and NPCs of their own, and occasionally surprises me with something I never saw coming.

I enjoy romance and smut, but the characters themselves are what keep me invested. Give me their passions, contradictions, bad habits, insecurities, and their unfortunate ability to make decisions that seem perfectly reasonable right up until the consequences arrive.

I don't expect us to plan every scene in advance. In fact, I rather enjoy discovering what happens when two characters develop a mind of their own and start making life difficult for their writers.

SO... WHAT NOW?

If anything here gave you an idea, come talk to me.

You can take one of these prompts and change it, bring me something completely different, or simply introduce me to that female character you've wanted to write for months but haven't quite found the right story for yet.

Whether we begin with a particular kink, an unusual character, or a story that neither of us can quite stop thinking about, I'd love to see what we can create together.

I don't need to know how our story ends before we begin.

I just need both of us to want to find out what happens next.

Sawyer

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[sawyer73]

A little bump to celebrate a complete makeover of my search thread!


I’ve given the whole thing a fresh coat of paint, reorganised my ideas, and put a little more emphasis on what I’m actually looking for, particularly older women, BBWs/SSBBWs, unconventional beauty, and the various kinks that come with my questionable taste in fictional romance.


There are still vampires, dark fantasy, complicated relationships, and plenty of opportunities for our characters to make terrible decisions together.


If you’ve visited before, it might be worth another look. And if you haven’t, well, there’s no time like the present!


I’m still very much looking for writing partners, so don’t hesitate to reach out if something catches your interest.