Challenge Submission Sometimes the Beginning is Also the End

[CalamityQueen]

Will someone
Please
Tell me
What was it
That took
The red mud clay
The dirty creek water
The broken bits
Of briar and blackberry
Out of my mouth?
What is it about
Adulthood that has
Eaten away
Every good thing
That ever happened?
Why does it kill me
Right now,
To know that I
Will never stand again
In knee-deep water,
A bucket of crawfish in my hand,
Sure that my momma
Is calling my name
Somewhere far off?
Now, exiled from youth
My heart has softened like
A rotten peach.
We are not allowed
To go backward.
We will never walk this path again,
And I can never go home.